Caveh Zahedi - Blog (Humiliation as a Path to Humility)

This morning, I was interviewed on New Zealand Television. I'm not sure why, but there was something wrong with the playback and the excerpts were broadcast at the wrong speed. Consequently, I sounded insane and the prostitute sounded like a man.

Then later this evening, my film premiered in New Zealand. Again, there was something wrong with the projection, only this time the film was speeded up. The whole thing had the look and feel of a Keystone Cops comedy, and I sounded like I had inhaled helium. Unfortunately, it was impossible to fix the problem, so all I could do was blog about it afterwards.

My experience of filmmaking is one of an endless series of disappointments and humiliations. Today's projection snafus were really just par for the course. These things used to make me suffer way more than they do now, but I never cease to be amazed by the irony that it is invariably the very thing we think will somehow increase our self-worth that invariably challenges it the most. It feels like the work of a higher power hell-bent on teaching us humility.

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I never cease to be amazed by the irony that it is invariably the very thing we think will somehow increase our self-worth that invariably challenges it the most. It feels like the work of a higher power hell-bent on teaching us humility.

i feel the same way, except for the "higher power" part -- i believe it's just the way things are colliding with the way we'd like them to be.

hello form Providence.

Posted by Dave A. on Jul 21, 2006 at 06:52PM

Wow, Caveh -- I hadn't thought of it like that. But I've had that same experience myself, and it's frustrating and crazy-making, and your way of looking at it does make sense. I know God is constantly trying to teach me humility. And patience.

Posted by Chris on Jul 21, 2006 at 09:14PM

I'll remember what you said here, Caveh, when I run into humiliation down the road, which I'm sure I will. In fact, I already have--I wasn't able to finish (or even start) my project for Greta's class. The whole thing just fell through.

I like the way you look at things, Caveh. Always have.

Also, shouldn't it be "heaven-bent?"

Posted by Michael on Jul 22, 2006 at 05:59AM

hahaha! Oh shit, that's awful. I'm glad you posted the AV of the mess up, though, and I'm sorry to hear things got bungled.

Posted by Josh on Jul 30, 2006 at 02:01PM

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