Bleak Moments

By tully | "Boredom at Its Boredest" by Michael Tully July 28, 2005 at 12:14PM

Bleak Moments

So, I finally watched "Lilya 4-Ever" last night. Jesus Christ. If Lukas Moodysson isn't the best filmmaker in the world, he's certainly up there. Though I haven't seen "A Hole in My Heart" yet. Either way, after "Show Me Love" and "Together" and "Lilya," homeboy can retire a master of the craft.

Honestly, the one thing I miss about NYC--aside from friends, of course--is the film selection. Which is why one of the few movies I "get" to cover for work in August is "Deuce Bigalow." I wonder if not having seen part one will lessen the impact of Schneider's performance. God I hope so.

Something weird is going down with me and this weblog thing. Like, after I post a post, I have this weird flash that I've already posted the exact same thing only days before. I feel like I'm being redundant. Fortunately, right now I'm confident that I've never posted a post about this very subject, but once I actually publish it and send it into the real world, I'll probably have a flash that I said this very thing last week at some point. Come to think of it, I've been having deja vus quite frequently lately. What if I were to get stuck and life became one gigantic deja vu? Would that drive me insane? I read somewhere that deja vu is simply a glitch where oxygen passes through the memory part of the brain before the normal processing part (very scientific, I know), causing one to think it's happened before when it really hasn't. And while I don't care about this enough to actually check my previous posts to confirm and/or deny my suspicions, it's still kinda weird. Glad I got that off my chest.

As I said the other day (there, I remember that at least!), I doubt anyone who reads this doesn't read Wendywire. Suffice to say, Wendy's response to "Cocaine Angel" has singlehandedly justified my decision to take the directorial plunge. I trust her opinion, and it was especially exhilarating to hear after a downswing in the ol' mental cycle. Thanks Wendy! Next weekend Dave and I are going to do another pass, at which point I think we'll be almost completely picture locked.

If all goes according to plan, Wendy will actually be able to lay claim to a FEROCIOUSLY VITAL piece of the CA puzzle. I don't want to jinx it, but once the deed is done, I will post the news here. Even if it's bad news. Especially if it's bad news. But I feel, deep down, that it's going to be good news. And if it does turn out to be good news, my life really WILL feel like a dream. I should know by Monday or Tuesday what the verdict is. Pray for me, gentle reader(s), and I will in turn pray for you!

Might go see "Hustle & Flow" tonight. So bob on that knob, muhfukkazzz...

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